Sitting there and seemingly staring into space,
Starting to doubt my vision
Seeing only moving shapes
– sameness –
Shadows, people, cars, a bag carried by the wind, a bird, even a tray carried by a waitress seems to have its own entity, …
/“shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh”/
Same goes with feelings, all of them turning into one, they look like trees;
So why do these desires look like trees that grow and in the meantime they turn into a sparrow that flies away – everything is the same, everything is one.
/ shit!?!? Is that ok? /
Shit, I realize I made it all alive. If it weren’t for me, all of this wouldn’t exist. And if I am the son who can make a living, how can I decide that
something is more worth living than another?
Such a difference in our mind between what is more worthy of existence than
something else?
Spelas’ mind has an amazing ability to constantly crush the truth.
She can make the FALSE out of the truth and uses all possible means to do so.
She has the power to convert good and bad as he sees fit. And
so the good and the bad become the same!
Spelas’ mind decides what is more or less worth its love.
/ Slowly I got to understand, I do not support, but I do understand /
So the key question, however, is whether a person really knows what he wants. How does she know he wants what is TRUE? Is he aware of where his desires come from? Are
somehow these really your wishes? Do you realize what it is in you that desires these
so called desires? NOT who, but WHAT!?
Society, If you are aware of every moment,
Sucking each movement,
Sipping coffee.
Stop at least for a moment in your action and consciously repeat it –
Shit! Would you still execute it? Is this what you really want?
Shit! Is that what you want to feel?
SHIT! And then, you realize that there really is only that moment in which you are NOW
SHIT! if you’re not in it,
SHIT! YOU DO NOT EXIST.- this is unacceptable.
So start with a simple exercise. Take the
SOAP and when washing your hands “ONLY” wash your hands, think about how the
SOAP feels on your palms, how it
slides, how differently your palms feel just because you decided to think about them.
Slowly inhale upon realizing what your mind is capable of if it is focused, conscious!
See that it is your decision! You don’t have to be lost somewhere in space –
SOAP yourself to the truth. Observe how it is closer and more visible after each use.
Saying not that you have to use all the
SOAP at once – don’t rush to the truth, give it time and understand it gradually.
SHIT!- only in this way you are alive, otherwise you are not!
SHIT!
da.da 