I am inventor of things that were already invented.
ART is my LIFE and this for me is my already invented invention.
But there is something I truly did invent on my own!
I invented this asshole, ME, Da.Da and before you read Da.Da (because I know you might not read it till the end) let me just tell you – invent YOURSELF and believe it as strongly as I believe in every word I have written in this post – at the end YOU are much more interesting and bigger than Da.Da!!! (my ego doesn’t agree, but he is an asshole)
this is a story behind my DOT, last DOT.
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I am DOT.
It describes emotional, artistic and rational part of my brain. It all comes down to this simple dark spot that for me is most complicated shape I will ever draw.
Emotional DOT:
At the end everything comes down to EGO. He is that TRUE best friend. With best friend like that you don’t need enemy. In DOT project I went as deep as it gets to knowing my best friend and believe me, this is a life trip. To really understand what he wants from you could be dangerous. I found out things about myself that turned everything upside down. My biggest strengths actually turned out to be my biggest weakness and to overcome this I had to become truly naked in front of the mirror. It is hard to see yourself in the mirror like that. And when you KNOW things you can never go back. And I don’t ever want to go back, even if it was easier in that bubble. Brain is that perfect mechanism that has endless capacity of knowledge, you can fill it up with recognitions that will stay there forever and you just build this structure endlessly. Isn’t that amazing? There is no END to this DOT.
When you come to the bottom of EGO you realize how the same they are. And it is easy as that, we are the same in our otherness.
DOT for me became everything and nothing.
I became everyone and no one.
Absence and presence of everything.
This words are maybe hard to understand if you are not in the same state of mind.
Every DOT was taken by its own interpretation and there is no need for you to understand what that DOT is for me. It maybe brings me more joy if you don’t – #happybubble.
When I write this, I remember the moment when I was explaining this words to someone. And that was the first and last time I did it, because I know I can not repeat the intensity I felt at that split second of life time. Everything was crystal clear. Every single word was understood. I could feel hearts beating (or maybe it was just my ass, freezing on cold stairs we were sitting on!?! sorry, too much emotions).
Artistic DOT
This round black shape came out of my laziness. When I opened sketch book I wasn’t able to draw anything more complicated. I needed something clean that wouldn’t rape my eyes and brain, but I needed to draw something!! Anything! I filled up my sketch book with those DOTs out of lack of imagination, out of lost of creativity, my brain was dead. And I hated that feeling at that time, because I feel guilty being lazy as an artist. I even feel guilty of being an artist, because it was put into my believe that maybe we don’t DO enough in this world. But what is enough? Why can’t I be lazy?
Through DOT project, by making this “simple” shape I realized that that is ME, that is me as an artist. Right amount of laziness combined with bursts of productivity. But that thing that might appear as laziness to outside world is actually biggest work I will ever be doing. It is putting things together without even thinking, it is all happening all the time! If I could be lazy all the time I would be genius – haha – I know, I couldn’t sound more modest.
Rational DOT:
Shape of area of circle (A=πr ²) that is defined by mathematical equation was created with human mind. And that equation actually brings nothing to the world existence, but it is ultimate description of human being. Being that is capable of big developments and the same time destruction. And NOW we are witness to that perfect destruction of what we as humans created. We made this DOT and we will destroy this DOT. There is all that is to it! No “eco-friendly” bullshit will save us from it. No recycling will do any good – I strongly believe this is just fairytale that is sold to us by capitalism. Through evolution we became consumers, this is who we are. It is all made for us to feel better about what we do on this world (collective EGO). That we have this small hope that our recycling might do any good. We need to feel that, to be in peace with ourselves, so that we can sleep at night and tell our friends how we are helping to save this world. It is just deception away from real problems that we are about to face
– is democracy really good solution?
– how to find new forms of work?
– new forms of communication?
– reshaping true relation between woman and men? so there will be any hope for change…
– …..
It was said to me that this topics are too hard.
My dad told me that my words scare him:
/“where did I do wrong with raising you?”/
/“don’t talk about it, woman will hate you, men will be lost…”/ – I will listen to him (for now:). But this is the same man who told me:
/”I didn’t want kids”/
/“your mom told me what I want”/ – I love him for his honesty!
Human is here to destroy the world, so something else can come after us, hopefully something stronger and more developed.
THE DOT
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Thank you! ALL 64 raw animalistic human(s) that pushed me towards bigger ME.
And at the end I would like to thank my friend Olivier Poinsignon for finishing my DOT project. I needed human with it’s own mind. Someone who saw sense in it in it’s own way, whatever it was. Thank you for your time and expertise.
My DOT is inside my ear, to remember me to shut up and listen!
p.s.: true shape of DOT is visible in only one position of my body and I want you to meet me live and see it.
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stop thinking
da.da 